Give yourself the best gift Week 6.

I'm not going to bother with copying and chatting about each of my actions points this week. Really, I did the best I could given the circumstances. Yesterday I blogged about what I could do this week, if anything. I was going to give up and take a break. It's been a really stressful week and I didn't do as well as I could have, or that I should have anyways. My plan yesterday was to just take a break, for who knows how long and come back to blogging/calorie counting/working out when I had less stuff on my plate. I woke up this morning with a new perspective. I'm going to put more focus on me, eating, working out, ect and just let the other stuff be the unimportant stuff to go. I've lost 19 lbs and I haven't been trying my hardest. So now I will. i'm going to refocus and give 100% this time, and not 65% or whatever it was that I WAS doing.  So since it's the end of October, I am going to go a head and talk about my goals for this upcoming week and month and just let this last week go.

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• I will set a new goal, either a scale goal, or an NSV for every month. - For Novembers Goal, I have a few things I want to do. I want to make sure I drink 2L of water every day. I don't want to weigh myself for the whole month. I want to make sure I eat breakfast every day. their all sort of mini-goals so  something to work on this month for sure. 
• I will workout. I won't depend on diet alone for weight loss. I will work out 3 days a week, whether it's 30 minutes, or 2 hours. I will commit to 3 designated work outs a week. - Since this isn't a possibility for the foreseeable future, I'm going to just wake up and stretch every day, and try and take a short walk 3 times a week (given it doesn't snow lol) Since I am already feeling a little better, just battered and bruised, I think I'll be back to running next week, but since I took this week off I think I'm going to re-do Week 3 and carry on from there since I basically have taken 2 weeks off. 
• I will try something new once a week. Food, recipe, activity, whatever. - Since my body is sore, my "new" thing is going to be aquasize. It's not really new since I used to go to a different pool all the time, but it's a new pool with new people that I've never been to before so as long as Adrian is home on time on Tuesday I'll ask him to take me. If that's not possible then by the end of the week I'll try the Yoga that I had planned on last week if my back is a little bit better.

While this hasn't been my best week, or weekend I'm glad I'm not giving up and I'm glad it gave me the opportunity to re prioritize and figure out where i really need to be putting more of my energy instead of stewing in my own misery. 

I made it through the week alive.

     Barely, but still alive. I was doing okay and was trying to stay motivated and have my head in the right place until yesterday. I was getting ready to go shopping with a friend when I slipped and fell down the stairs had to call an ambulance and was strapped to a board for 4 hours waiting for an Xray to show nothing in my back is broken even though I knew it wasn't broken. This has seriously been the week from hell. I had the flu, fell down the stairs, and now I have a cold. I seriously am just so ready to throw myself in front of a bus and get out of my misery. Ok not literally, but still. I'm bruised and so, so sore. I have hardwood floors, and the ONE day I wear socks I slip and fall down the stairs. I seriously feel so stupid. SO.DUMB. I'm just glad I managed to crawl up the stairs to my phone since I was home alone with the baby (who was luckily asleep, and not in my arms as she would usually be.)

     So due to yesterdays accident I am bed/couch ridden which means my C25K and walking goal is on hold at least for this upcoming week. It sucks because I was so motivated and really trying to stick with it after I had the flu and now this. At least I'll be able to stick with the rest of my action points, I'm going to have to modify them this upcoming week though I suppose. I am hoping I heal up quickly, it would be easier if I could rest but such is not the case. I'll have to think about what I want to do and work on this upcoming week and post my Give Yourself The Best Gift Challenge update later tonight.

Glad that's over.

     So after a lovely birthday party for a friends little cutie on Sunday, Nina had full on flu Tuesday. Then I had FULL ON RAGING FLU FROM DEATH Tues/Wed and still feeling pretty sore today so I didn't do my walk or run but we're back to good health tonight and should be right back on track tomorrow. I have absolutely no motivation to actually do it but I can't get off track now... I just got on! It's easy though to let being sick really drag you down and next thing you know you totally lose sight and forget what you were working for.

     On the topic of falling off the wagon... this is the longest I've ever worked at trying to lose weight. It's usually a phase, lasts a week of two, if that. Then it's back to normal days. I've been logging on MFP religiously, every day, for 135 days as of today. I count that as my "actual" start day now. June 15th 2011. I started off slow, and I haven't always been totally on track but I've always been committed and I keep saying I'm having slow progress but slow progress is better then no progress. I am trying to balance eating what I want, with eating what I should and I've had good days and bad but since I'm nearly 20lbs down now I'll take  it.

     It's been a long, frustrating, and hard week. At least now it's half over. I just need to stay motivated!!

A few extras

     Besides my challenges, there's a few other things I'd like to do or pay attention to. I need to drink more water, for sure. I haven't been keeping up with that as much as I would like. Drink more water, and keep track of it.  I want to start sharing my daily/weekly exercise and calorie amounts/goals. Weigh-in once a week. As it is, I weigh myself several times a day and it's not helpful.

     I've been thinking of going vegetarian. I think it might be impossible though, since I love meat so much. I just wonder if there are health benefits after watching a show called Forks Over Knives it's hard to deny it, really.  I think I'll start with a few nights meatless and then if Adrians into it start doing it more often. I look him to a vegetarian restaurant ( Padmanadi's ) it was so good. If I could cook like that, I'd have no problems changing!

     So from now on Monday is for weigh-in, and posting my calories and water intake. There was some other things I was thinking of yesterday but they've slipped my mind for now but I think I have enough challenge this week lol.

Week 5, already?

     Wow, these last few weeks are flying by.  Here's my update for the Give Yourself The Best Gift Challenge.

•  will eat out less. I will eat clean. I will make better choices when I do eat out. I will stay within my calories, no exceptionsI. Bang. On. I stayed in my calories, and as for eating out... I'll post about that at my next point, since it was Octobers Goal to lose 5lbs and not eat out, at all.

• I will set a new goal, either a scale goal, or an NSV for every month. Octobers scale goal was 5lbs. I don't think I'm going to make it but I've been doing so well with my calories, and burning a lot of cals working out so we'll see what the end result is, soon. I haven't been weighing myself and I'm thinking of making a mini goal for this week not to weigh myself at all instead of every morning. Good idea Sabrina. As for my October goal of not eating out at all.... this week I managed to avoid it! I feel like it's a major feat. It seems so ridiculous really, but I did it, and I am happy.

• I will workout. I won't depend on diet alone for weight loss. I will work out 3 days a week, whether it's 30 minutes, or 2 hours. I will commit to 3 designated work outs a week. Yes!! Again!! So proud. I am starting week 4 of the C25K on Monday. I also did a 30 minute jog AND an hour walk with the baby today and I am aiming to do it a lot more this week while the nice weather lasts.

• I will be more (pro)active. I will do things. I will not procrastinate, I will do what needs to be done, as it needs doing or before. I honestly thought I had been doing so well with this one. Then I realized... I've lived here over a month... and the babies room is still all packed up. Not one thing besides her bedding and clothes were unpacked. Well minus toys but those aren't even in her room to begin with. Challenge for this week: Set up the babies room!!

• I will plan my meals in advance. Yes!! every day this week and I'm sure that's what been keeping me from eating out and staying in my calories this week.

• I will try something new once a week. Food, recipe, activity, whatever. I don't remember what I said last week, I'll have to go back and check it out but I'm sure I did it lol. Today I'm  making chicken Tikka Masala! So thats new. As for trying something new this upcoming week... let's go with...Yoga. Since all of my try something new's have been foods... I'll try a new activity this week. There's a yoga studio near my house that I might be able to make it to one day if Adrian gets off early.
• I will be nicer to my husband. Well, this was a disaster lol.

So, in summary this week I think I did pretty darn good. I'm excited for the upcoming week to do even better. What I'm going to work on this week is:

1.) Going to yoga

2.) Not weighing myself.

3.) C25K + 3, 1 hour walks.

4.) Babies room

5.) Not eating out.

6.) The last 3 lbs for my Oct scale goal.

It seems so hard, yet easy at the same time lol. I guess we will have to see how it goes.

Sabrina Vs. The Halloween Chocolates

     So far they've been winning. 50 calories/ mini chocolate bar...I haven't gone too crazy but I'd prefer not to be eating them at all. Damn them and their chocolately goodness.  Anyhoo, I started back on the C25K yesterday and tomorrow I will be finished week 3 but MAN do my lungs burn. I definitely regret taking that week off. I'll get over it though... and I'm back on track so I'm feeling pretty good still about the way things are going.  I just wish I could be more active... as dumb as that sounds. At our old place we had two pools and a gym nearby and I don't have that convenience here to just walk to the pool and have the privacy we did at our old place ( the pool was always empty, so I had it all to myself.) I'm not a very good swimming so I really liked that.

     I haven't eaten out at all yet this week which is my biggest challenge usually so this is the first week in as long as I can remember. I've been getting better at the meal planning biz, and even adding in some snacks when I used to just eat the 3 meals and I'd feel full in between but I think I'm getting better at evening it out and having some snacks in between so that's good too. What are your favorite snacks during the day?

     I feel like I'm not losing as much, or as fast as I would like to. while I do tell myself any progress is better then no progress I feel like I keep telling myself I could be doing better but not doing anything to change or fix the problem. I'll have to work that into my goals for next week and next month.

Oh! and if anybody uses MFP you should add me!  SabrinaK1986
   

Give yourself the best gift challenge, week #4.

     I wasn't going to do this right now, because I am hung-fucking-over, but I will cause it was a great week and this will be easy peasy.

Statement

By the end of this holiday season, I want to feel confident and happy. I don't want to have any regrets. This holiday season I want to give myself the gift of health, and weight loss, and to have the feeling of accomplishment.

Action points

• I will eat out less. I will eat clean. I will make better choices when I do eat out. I will stay within my calories, no exceptions.
• I will set a new goal, either a scale goal, or an NSV for every month.
• I will workout. I won't depend on diet alone for weight loss. I will work out 3 days a week, whether it's 30 minutes, or 2 hours. I will commit to 3 designated work outs a week.
• I will be more (pro)active. I will do things. I will not procrastinate, I will do what needs to be done, as it needs doing or before.
• I will plan my meals in advance.
• I will try something new once a week. Food, recipe, activity, whatever.
• I will be nicer to my husband.

 I did everything minus the work out this week, I didn't work out at all this week. I ate out once this week too much is not good but better then what it used to be so again I'll consider it a victory lol. I'm down a 1, so 2/5 on my goal for Oct. Overall no complaints. been really happy lately!

Wait, what? I enjoyed shopping?

     Since Thanksgiving I've been feeling pretty in the dumps. I have a really hard time with my fucked up family and holidays reaaaally bring me down. I spend most of the day crying and then I feel all funky for a few weeks.  I was supposed to go swimming with a friend and the kids yesterday but cancelled due to being a sad asshole. In the end I decided to go to the mall anyways and buy some clothes for the baby, a little retail therapy.

     I decided to go to my favorite store and try on a few shirts that were on sale and I looked at myself and oh-my-god. I SAW it. I was thinner, i felt SO GOOD even in my least flattering jeans. I could see the difference and then I tried on SOOO many clothes then I made Adrian come with me when he was off work and tried on moreeee clothes. I even went to other stores.  I usually shop at Rickis because they carry from 0-20 ( or 18? I d k ) so I don't feel huge when I'm trying things on. I feel like I'm average, even though I'm not plus size. So I went to a few other stores too.

     I ran into a friend of Adrians who I hadn't seen in a few months and he even did a double take. I think he might have noticed that I lost NINTEEN POUNDS (!!!!) but he's a guy... and nobody wants to be THAT  guy who mentions a girls weight lol. When I met him I was 110lbs, and at my highest I was 182. As of today I am 163!! ONE HUNDRED AND SIXTY FUCKING THREE. I seriously just got right out of my funk when I stepped on the scale today. I'm tired of feeling sad over a bunch of drama. I'm losing weight to make me happy, and it's working.

     I've said it before and I'll say it again.. I'm so proud of myself. I'm glad that I've lost the weight obviously.. I'm glad that I'm sticking to it and I'm happy that I can make changes to make me a happier person and just get over it. Get over everything. Leave it behind like yesterdays weight lol.

Give yourself the best gift week 3

     It has been a crazy week. Followed by the usual weekend drama llama. Now I realize why it's so hard to stick to it on weekends... with my crazy ass family, and Adrian working 9-9 and home all day sunday it just throws off my weekend. You think we'd be in some kind of routine but these last few weeks are going by so fast. I didn't even realize it had been a week until it was time to update again.

Action points

• I will eat out less. I will eat clean. I will make better choices when I do eat out. I will stay within my calories, no exceptions. I'm not eating clean, per say. I'm eating better then before I find eating "clean" is much too hard for me. I'm staying in my calories though and we only ate out once this week. I did not stay within my calories that day lol.
• I will set a new goal, either a scale goal, or an NSV for every month. I already failed on my goal not to eat out AT ALL. Though I did cut it down to just once this week so hopefully the rest of the month goes well too. I haven't been taking many more pictures but I'm cooking a turkey today for thanks giving... There will be a photo lol. I'm also not down any of the 5lbs I was hoping for this month which is really discouraging.
• I will workout. I won't depend on diet alone for weight loss. I will work out 3 days a week, whether it's 30 minutes, or 2 hours. I will commit to 3 designated work outs a week. I BARELY made this one, but I did it and that's what counts. I'm starting week 3 of the C25K.
• I will be more (pro)active. I will do things. I will not procrastinate, I will do what needs to be done, as it needs doing or before.  I've been doing good with this still... mind you I was just in the kitchen thinking about how the dishes need to be done but decided to update my blog instead. Sundays are Adrians only day off, which mean it's my only day off as well.
• I will plan my meals in advance.  Bang on this week!
• I will try something new once a week. Food, recipe, activity, whatever. I made won tons. NEVER.AGAIN. I won ton'd my hands numb. From now on, I'm buying them premade. They WEEEERRRE so good though.
• I will be nicer to my husband.  No arguments this week! Which is a win for us I think.

Give yourself the best gift challenge Week 2

Action points

• I will eat out less. I will eat clean. I will make better choices when I do eat out. I will stay within my calories, no exceptions. I've been doing really good with this. Next week will be even better.
• I will set a new goal, either a scale goal, or an NSV for every month. I didn't reach my goal for September (6lbs) but I did reach 5 and I'm happy with that. My goal for October is an NSV, and it is not to eat out AT ALL. This one is going to be so hard, I don't know why I have such problems with this. Also, a mini goal for this month is to take more pictures and post more pictures.
• I will workout. I won't depend on diet alone for weight loss. I will work out 3 days a week, whether it's 30 minutes, or 2 hours. I will commit to 3 designated work outs a week. I did not do this this week, I kept putting it off and by the time the weekend came it was hectic as crazy and my cats sequestered to the basement and it's quiet so I'm hoping this week is better. 
• I will be more (pro)active. I will do things. I will not procrastinate, I will do what needs to be done, as it needs doing or before.  I've been doing o - k with this. Just okay, I could improve.
• I will plan my meals in advance. Again, I was doing okay until the weekend. I'm sure next week I'll  be back on track. 
• I will try something new once a week. Food, recipe, activity, whatever. This week I tried blueberry muffins. They were rock hard, and not very good. Next week I am going to try banana bran bread.
• I will be nicer to my husband.  It's been a stressful weekend, so I think I've actually done really well with this. We're dealing with a lot of guilt over what happened so we've really had to support each other so we don't go crazy.