I logged everything on mfp and I was going to make my diary private, but I didn't. I even brought attention to the fact I went over my calories. I didn't know how people would react or what they would have to say but I felt like I needed them to know, I needed them to comment and acknowledge that they saw it and not just not say anything. I don't know why I felt like that but people always comment on "good days" or when I log in for 285 days so I kind of feel like I needed to know what they thought when I had a bad day. I am happy that they seemed to know and understand. They didn't have anything rude to say just basically to pick myself up by my boot straps and carry on, but at the same time not saying that it was okay.
I'm okay, I'm not doing well with food or working out. I had pizza last night and im going to have fries with my dinner tonight but I'm okay with this tonight. Tomorrow I'm sticking to the plan and going to start working on my 15K. I'm feeling good about this week, and the future in general.
I haven't come far weight wise, but my life, my attitude has changed leaps and bounds in the last year. Emotionally I have come so far and I can feel the difference. I love my life. I'm not depressed. I look forward to getting out of bed every.fucking.day. I feel better in my marriage and as a mother and as a person in general. I had a bad day last week, but the support and love I felt afterwards was something I didn't think I'd ever feel. I don't have much of a family, and I don't have many friends... but I am SO lucky, and so grateful for the people in my life. Virtual or otherwise. Thanks everybody!!
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