Sunday, March 4, 2012

Bear with me here...

     I feel like I should start this post with a disclaimer that I am on a lot of pain meds at the moment so what I'm trying to say, and what I might end up saying could possibly be two very different things... but I'm hoping in the end it just makes sense.

     I finally was able to have a BM this morning. Which I thought would help me get a normal weight when I weighed in. Such was not the case. I weigh 167 this morning. That puts me up 8 lbs from my last official weigh in. I have no feelings about it. I'm not mad, I'm not disappointed and I'm not upset. It's just a fact. I did this to myself and this is where I am. I'm going to follow this seasons Biggest Loser Motto, No Excuses. I could say I'm having a hard time staying in my calories because I have to eat every 4 hours. I could say that I can't work out because I'm in pain. Those are excuses. It's a little more tricky for me right now, but it's not impossible. I just need to plan better, and work out but take it easy. I have lost this weight before and I can, and will, do it again plus more. A lot more.

     A few things I do need to work on:
Staying in my calories - Not only staying in them but making better choices. I've always believed that moderation is key and I still do. I've never denied myself the things I wanted but lately I have been taking advantage of that to a fault. I've been eating out more then ever and while I'll still have subway once in a while ( when I can eat it again that is) I'm saying adios to all my other favorite places for now. It was fine for a month but I'm not going to be able to get where I want if I don't make big changes.

Actually working out - Today I'm going to start by walking a few minutes on the treadmill. I know it's not much but in all honesty, it's what I can do for today. I'm going to do it every day. Start with the walking and move on from there. It's how I started and I'm not going to use being sore as an excuse. A few minutes of walking will be okay for me and when I'm feeling better I will do more, but for now I'm not going to do nothing.

Being accountable. - by this I mean tracking absolutely everything. I also posted before that I was going to start sharing my weekly calorie updates and now that I have this cool chart thing on my Ipad, I'm going to upload it every Sunday. Yes, starting today even though my last week was not on point. No point in saying I'm going to do something but not start today.

Drinking more water - I'm a little disappointed because this is something that I'm usually pretty good at! I  love drinking water! Since I can't use my favorite cup, or a straw, for the time being I have to drink out of glasses (borrrring j/k) I find that I'm not drinking nearly as much as I used to. I've also stopped drinking tea which I used to love too.  To add a bit to this,  I'm going to majorly cut back on my alcohol consumption. I know I've said that a million times before but never have. If I want to make these changes, and I seriously want to commit to losing the weight then it is what I will have to do no matter how sads it makes me.  Technically I already started since I can't drink on my meds now anyways.

Continue to support, and accept support - I haven't been reading blogs as regularly as I was, nor was I commenting on them, reading forum threads or talking to friends who I know are on the same weight loss mission as I am. I'm going to make an extra effort to reach out to friends and other bloggers and definitely ask when I feel like I need support or advice which isn't something I've been able to do much lately.

     After getting all this down, and seeing my goals and seeing what I know I need to do and knowing absolutely that I can do it, I've done it before I feel like I'm ready.  No regrets. No excuses. Just moving on and feeling excited about what the future is going to bring for me in the upcoming weeks. Perhaps I'll check around the blogger world and see if I can find any upcoming challenges that I might be able to work with.

I feel like I'm back. 100% back.