Tuesday, January 24, 2012

Feeling SO good.

     So, so, SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO good. I went shopping the other day and they didn't have the shirt I wanted in a large so the girl told me to try a medium and I said I'd probably have better luck with an XL. She gave me the Medium and a Large in a different color. I ended up getting both shirts in a MEDIUM. I could have pooped myself I was so happy. I can't remember the last time I needed a medium in anything!  I've been wearing make up every day which I don't usually do. I'm back to running again. I just feel so over-it. My face hurts from smiling so much for days. I'm so grateful and lucky to have my followers and a really great support system in my friends. I think blogging and finally being able to get out and say the things I've never been able to say anybody has really just let me move on in ways I didn't think I could. I'm 26 now, and I finally feel like all the pieces fit. Everything is making sense. I don't feel like a child living an adults life.

     Now, onto the not-so-great.  I'm getting braces and I've been looking forward to this for years. I'm so over the moon and sometimes I cry thinking about how stoked I am that we can finally afford to. (We have to pay out of pocket eek!) It's like getting your dream car for your birthday or something lol. The thing is, I am terrified of the dentist. Like full on anxiety attack. I can't breath, I start crying and about 90% of the time I end up cancelling my appointments. I cancelled one on Monday and Adrian told me if I want my braces I HAVE TO GO. ( I have to get all my fillings before my consultation with the ortho, then I have to go to a dental surgeon and get my wisdom teeth pulled because they're growing sideways and not upwards, then skin grafts on my gums from that stupid, stupid tongue ring I had for 10 years) In my head I want to go, and I know I need to go... but I physically do not want to go. D: It's terrifying. Any one else scared of the dentist? How do you deal?! I have an appointment for the 31st...wish me luck.

     Oh! Today is my nieces 10th birthday!! Happy Birthday Lexi!!


  1. No longer feeling like a child living an adult's life is a really articulate thing to say. This year I finally started feeling the same way. It feels good although it makes me pity who I was over the last few years. Oh well, time to move on :D

    Stoked for braces omg!

  2. You can do that. A dentist appointment does not take that long, and you will have good teeth for the rest of your life. Learn some relaxation techniques (meditation, affirmations, whatever works for you) and do it.

    Oh, and congratulations on the new shirts! Pictures? ^^

  3. What did your tongue ring do?
    I've had one for 13 years now,lol and I"m dying to know!

    I'm happen you've passed into this new phase of your life.
    It only gets better from here! xoxo

  4. It wore Away my gums at the bottom of the front two teeth and I have to get ski. Grafts to replac it or my teeth will fall out lol. It also chopped one of my back teeth so bad they had to dig it out cause there was no tooth left.

  5. Yikes!
    I can see how that could happen,sometimes my gums get a little sore in the bottom front. Scary to think it happened to you!