This is harder then I thought.

     Not just getting back into the grove of things, but just life in general lately. Adrian's hours at work changed again so he's only seeing Nina one day a week. Life is just crazy, I really don't know how to get it under control. I'm feeling super overwhelmed but I just need to get through these weeks, find a job, hope everything works out for the best. I really just dont know where to begin.

    I'm tracking my food again, so hopefully that gives me a little more structure and I can control my eating habits because I have just been eating out far too much, too much junk. Bens coming home soon so I don't think that will help matters but at least then cooking at home won't be as depressing as when I'm cooking meals for one. I'm unsure if I'll ever have time to start working out again... I'm sure I will one day haha but not in the foreseeable future that is for sure. Specially since I had to get rid of my treadmill which is really too bad, I loved running. I do still have my gym pass I just haven't had any spare time. Maybe I need to make time, force myself to go and it would probably help with the stress.

     I have an ortho appointment tomorrow ( yay! Love ortho day!) and I have a job interview as a dental receptionist on Wednesday so wish me luck, I need it! Interviews always make me so nervous.

Back, hopefully for good.

     Life.Is.Crazzzzy. That's all I have to say.  Now that things are settling down, I'm moved into my new apartment, lifes finally getting back to normal.  I've been back and forth the last few weeks going to visit my boyfriend 8 hours away. There 3 days, here for 4. Such a mission. Luckily it's over and he will be home in two weeks.  My weight hasn't changed much, and I've been semi-tracking and eating out a ton. That's all going to change now.

     I am starting to look for a new job, and hopefully get life back to...my new normal. I have a hard time with Nina being gone three days a week, and Ben being gone I start to get really lonely. She's with me for all of December though because of Adrians work schedule but January is going to be really hard after having her all month.

     With all my free time from being unemployed you would think I'd take the opportunity to go to the gym, or use my spare time to do my meal planning... but that hasn't been happening. I'm going to start logging in every morning again like I used to. It definitely helped keep me on track. Now that I have a computer again it should be  a lot easier to stick to. I say that as I'm eating a chicken donair.

     Ah life is so good. It's unbelievable, I didnt know I could feel this happy... and free.